Another birth, but with different midwife (and etc.)
I got the chance to go to a birth with a different midwife than I normally go with - she was one of my midwives (she works in a pair) when I had my kiddos and I love them a lot. Right now they were able to use some help (not that I'm overly helpful esp. since I have to learn how they do things and all) so I got a call last night and got to go to a birth with one of them. It was a learning experience in that I learned a lot about how to chart what she was saying, I learned some newborn breathing stuff (always helpful) and some of how to acess gestational age. What I found was so profound is that the midwife I normally 'work' with is an entirely different kind of midwife than the midwife (midwives) I was able to work with yesterday. I see different things in each of them I love, and some in one that I don't love. I learn what approach I want to take and more importantly WHY I want to take that approach. I am able to examine through watching them what my Midwife-Heart actually looks like and where it stems from. I get to ask myself questions like, "Why would I do (or not do) _____?" In particular I ask myself these kinds of questions if something that is done shocks my heart, or feels especially 'right'.
Because of some life choices I made along the way as an early-adult, I found myself a part of a group that taught you to take your leadership from a person, follow what they believed, heard from God or thought was right/good/holy. It has been an interesting road from that point to here, but I feel that in some ways, part of my 'healing' to be able to follow that compass inside of my heart is in my midwife dream. I am not as certain as I remember always being, but I do know that with some things, there is no question in my heart about them. I feel that I get stronger in this as time and practice goes on. In finding my Midwife-Heart, I'm finding my own... kind of cool.
I have also recently been a part of the midwifery politics in my state - there are some things in the works that would give away some autonomy that midwives carry in this state - and I've found it kind of sad that there is no such thing as simple midwifery. You'd think that a woman getting educated to serve women in childbirth and then doing that would be rather simple (or at least straight forward), but that's not the case... there's more political crap that goes with anything medical (people vying for the position that carries the most power - like the food chain) than you'd ever expect. In my city there is a midwife on trial here at the end of the month... maybe she didn't make an excellent choice in what is up for trial, but I feel that more than anything she is being made an example of. That just rubs me the wrong way... to persecute someone not necessarily because of what they did but because of what they represent. I mean aren't we out of the dark ages? We go from persecuting colors to occupations. None of that is right.
But I should step down from my soap box since a lot of this is just opinion anyways (with some observation). Better tend to my kids.
Because of some life choices I made along the way as an early-adult, I found myself a part of a group that taught you to take your leadership from a person, follow what they believed, heard from God or thought was right/good/holy. It has been an interesting road from that point to here, but I feel that in some ways, part of my 'healing' to be able to follow that compass inside of my heart is in my midwife dream. I am not as certain as I remember always being, but I do know that with some things, there is no question in my heart about them. I feel that I get stronger in this as time and practice goes on. In finding my Midwife-Heart, I'm finding my own... kind of cool.
I have also recently been a part of the midwifery politics in my state - there are some things in the works that would give away some autonomy that midwives carry in this state - and I've found it kind of sad that there is no such thing as simple midwifery. You'd think that a woman getting educated to serve women in childbirth and then doing that would be rather simple (or at least straight forward), but that's not the case... there's more political crap that goes with anything medical (people vying for the position that carries the most power - like the food chain) than you'd ever expect. In my city there is a midwife on trial here at the end of the month... maybe she didn't make an excellent choice in what is up for trial, but I feel that more than anything she is being made an example of. That just rubs me the wrong way... to persecute someone not necessarily because of what they did but because of what they represent. I mean aren't we out of the dark ages? We go from persecuting colors to occupations. None of that is right.
But I should step down from my soap box since a lot of this is just opinion anyways (with some observation). Better tend to my kids.
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