The dream starts...
The dream begins in September... I will officially enter the Seattle Midwifery School - and thus begin a 3.5 year labr to a midwifery dream. I don't know if it officially ever ends (the labor and birth process, of any dream) but in the eyes of the state, it starts Sept. 2005.
What do I expect? Wow, I expect a lot of things... a lot of things to change. It's going to be a whole new experience and if there is one thing I hate, it's taking that first test in a class, not knowing how the teacher relates what they taught with what they test, what is expected of you, how well you know the information, etc. Drives me nutty... and I feel like that right now. Am I strong enough? Can I make it through a year let alone 3+? Am I really made to be a midwife? Is my marriage going to make it? (Okay, teasing, of course it will... but I hope it is a smooth transition to me in full-time school). Can I just get one tiny peak at the future for a second to see if I make it, and well? No? Alright then... one day at a time.
In the meantime, lots of *stuff* to buy... books, supplies, some serious babysitting. Is sanity on sale? No? Damn. Well, as the future moves forward, it's my hope to keep writing and witness the labor and birth of my dream to midwifery.
Sept. 13th and counting down...
What do I expect? Wow, I expect a lot of things... a lot of things to change. It's going to be a whole new experience and if there is one thing I hate, it's taking that first test in a class, not knowing how the teacher relates what they taught with what they test, what is expected of you, how well you know the information, etc. Drives me nutty... and I feel like that right now. Am I strong enough? Can I make it through a year let alone 3+? Am I really made to be a midwife? Is my marriage going to make it? (Okay, teasing, of course it will... but I hope it is a smooth transition to me in full-time school). Can I just get one tiny peak at the future for a second to see if I make it, and well? No? Alright then... one day at a time.
In the meantime, lots of *stuff* to buy... books, supplies, some serious babysitting. Is sanity on sale? No? Damn. Well, as the future moves forward, it's my hope to keep writing and witness the labor and birth of my dream to midwifery.
Sept. 13th and counting down...
posted by birthfree at
6:31 PM
2 Comments:
I'm jealous and thrilled to read your journey.
I have been back in school for the last couple of years, doing the pre-reqs for nursing. When I caught a baby a year ago June, I thought perhaps I was making a mistake and ought to re-think midwifery, which I had ruled out for myself (for lots of reasons.)
I wish you well, and really, truly look forward to reading you and seeing how you feel through the process.
BEST WISHES!
Hannah
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Milliner's Dream, a woman of many "hats"..., at 9:49 AM
P.S. I begin back the 21st of Sept. with my two years remaining for the RN. Who knows, maybe I'll still do midwifery--if I win the lottery! :)
Hh
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Milliner's Dream, a woman of many "hats"..., at 9:49 AM
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