The power of family

My husband and I have been talking about finances, family and in general our base feelings about all of that. As we're wadding through what feels like a tangled garden we're realizing more and more that how our family thought about issues (the same ones we're talking about) is the reason WE think what we think! Almost like we were pre-programmed (that sounds alien-took-me-away-ish, but I don't mean it like that). It baffles me that my family could have that deep of an effect on me without realizing it - but that's kind of cool. I mean that must happen to other people too (from their parents) and if that's true, a parent could do that in a good way. I'm sure that's the reason for attachment parenting! And a good reminder.

I have to take advantage of nap time so I'll be back again later. ; )

Moving on in stages...

It's very strange to move on from one season of life to another but recently my husband and I have been talking about quite seriously being done with having children and moving on past that part of our lifetime. It's so strange to consider that we may NEVER had any more children - as a choice! I feel like as every section of life goes by (childhood, young-adulthood, single-hood, etc.) that I'm kind of just along for the ride and it's felt almost like I'm not choosing. Now, making a concious choice, it's different and I feel... old. Old-er. We're talking about our family being complete, school options for the bigger boys, long-term occupations, etc. It's just weird!

I turned 30 this year, my husband started his own business, we had our third baby, moved, bought a VAN (that's proof of getting older right?) and in general started a new season of life. It's going to take some getting used to I think... sort of like how I'm sure it feels when your kids move out, start their lives individually.

Anyways, things at home are their crazy-speed-self, my doula and midwife-assistant work is still on hold for a while but I attended a VBAC birth for a set of friends we have just this past month (and it was powerful) - it was like the "fix" I needed to be able to continue to be in a 'break' for the rest of a year.

Our little one is turning 5 months on the 18th (OH MY GOSH!!) and I can't believe we're closing in on starting the second half of the first year - so much has changed and he is growing oh so fast. Our middle son has his third birthday at the end of this month and everyone is growing so much! He wasn't able to flip a light switch on in our house when we first moved here in August, but now he can not only switch them all on, but off as well, and barely standing on his tip toes... he's getting so obviously tall! He wears 4T pants (heck, our 4.5 year old wears 5T just fine, and probably needs them to be a bit bigger but he's so skinny in the waist we can't do that very often). Our family is just continuing to grow up.

Baby crying, better go.